Vyasa Puja offering for the year 1984
Dear Srila Prabhupäda,
Please accept my prostrated obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to Your Divine Grace.
At this moment, as I sit to write you, I feel myself utterly unfit and incapable of doing anything. Fortunately, you have formed the G.B.C., a transcendental clearing house of devotional service, so whatever little service we have begun can be presented to the Vaisnavas. They can utilize it, fashion it, or finish it in whatever way they see fit. Without your mercy we are incapable of doing anything. Bereft of your mercy, we can simply sit and weep.
Your mercy is manifest to us through the strong arms and helping hands of the G.B.C. They can lift us up when we are falling down. They can pull us along faster when we are going ahead. They can embrace us and encourage us in whatever condition and position we are in. They are the manifestation of your mercy upon a poor soul, struggling, crawling, dragging himself to the shelter of your lotus feet.
Hare Krishna. Hari bol.
I am very glad to know that you are still present – in a very personal way – in your instructions.
For a very long time I have been lamenting your separation, the absence of your personal presence. This reluctance to accept your separation, which meant my inability to appreciate your presence in the shape of your instructions, was even affecting my relationship with your beloved master, Lord Sri Krishna.
I had a grudge because you were taken.
Of course, it was Lord Sri Krishna who sent you in the first place, and it was He – you said in your humility – that was attracting us to Him through you, His transparent via medium.
Still some feeling was there.
Now by your mercy I have come to know that you are still present – not only you alone, but along with your eternal master, guide and friend, Lord Sri Krishna.
I thought I had lost something – the personal presence of Your Divine Grace, my only shelter, guide and friend, my very life itself.
But now I see that not only are you still with me, but Lord Krishna is also present with you, in the form of His instructions in your Bhagavad-gita As It Is and His pastimes in the Krishna book.
So by reading your books and following your instructions, I find that rather than having lost anything, I have actually gained to an unlimited degree.
”One who gives to Krishna is not the loser, but he is the gainer by millions of times.”
“Brahman [Krishna, or Krishna consciousness] is by nature blissful. It is unlimited and always expanding.”
I pray that no matter what happens to me, either in this life or any of the many more to come, I pray for only one benediction – no matter what happens, I pray that I may always remember your lotus feet (and never forget them) and keep unflinching faith in the order of my spiritual master and Krishna.
yasya deve parā bhaktir
yathā deve tathā gurau
tasyaite kathitā hy arthāḥ
Your worthless servant,